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July 28, 2011
in solitary.
so sad that the people i love are gone. so strange how each time the cycle repeats, it gets me worse than the last. so much longing. God give me strength.
July 26, 2011
love
i need some sort of venue to let out my creative side.
hmmm, when it comes to love, it has to be perfect. not perfect in the idealistic sense, but from a realistic perspective. knowing me, i love idealism and relish in what could bes and what could've beens. but what people never realize is that i am realistic, too. so realistic that it borders cynicism and draws frowns from those who prefer to overlook disquieting truths.
so i guess my "idealistic" views of perfect love means pure delight and satisfaction when moments freeze in one another's company, a mutual sharpening of identities, emotionally, intellectually and spiritually, a fearless pursuit of complimenting each individual's dreams, and an endearing quality characterized by discipline and persistence through difficult times.
hmmm, when it comes to love, it has to be perfect. not perfect in the idealistic sense, but from a realistic perspective. knowing me, i love idealism and relish in what could bes and what could've beens. but what people never realize is that i am realistic, too. so realistic that it borders cynicism and draws frowns from those who prefer to overlook disquieting truths.
so i guess my "idealistic" views of perfect love means pure delight and satisfaction when moments freeze in one another's company, a mutual sharpening of identities, emotionally, intellectually and spiritually, a fearless pursuit of complimenting each individual's dreams, and an endearing quality characterized by discipline and persistence through difficult times.
July 24, 2011
honored
a parent-child relations is a spectacular phenomena. one cannot just walk away without first fully experiencing the growing pains of change, beliefs, pain and forgiveness. then one begins to understand the intrinsic element love that gives power to cycles of growth, healthy and whole because of faith in loved ones and in God.
there are so many things i believe God to be-- the Son and the Holy Spirit; the all-mighty and powerful; the initiator of love, kindness, mercy, peace, happiness and understanding. God is an emotional being who wept for the fated souls of men. He is the God of change and the unpredictable, upsetting the genetic codes of mankind. He is the Lord, a knight of salvation, and a King worthy of setting suns and lily-buried paths.
this is my God, who has blessed me with a family, friends and a sheltered life, and i find it hard to believe that he chose to create me of all nature, toils and things. i must remember with my whole being that life is so much bigger than the confines of the mind. fill me with your creativity and renew my vision of your majesty and i shall strive to glorify your name.
there are so many things i believe God to be-- the Son and the Holy Spirit; the all-mighty and powerful; the initiator of love, kindness, mercy, peace, happiness and understanding. God is an emotional being who wept for the fated souls of men. He is the God of change and the unpredictable, upsetting the genetic codes of mankind. He is the Lord, a knight of salvation, and a King worthy of setting suns and lily-buried paths.
this is my God, who has blessed me with a family, friends and a sheltered life, and i find it hard to believe that he chose to create me of all nature, toils and things. i must remember with my whole being that life is so much bigger than the confines of the mind. fill me with your creativity and renew my vision of your majesty and i shall strive to glorify your name.
July 23, 2011
how do you respond to two stubborn people? how are you supposed to react when those two people are family, people you love and would virtually sacrifice anything for? i don't understand what fruit unyielding wills can accomplish within the safe walls of home except cause unrest within the spirit of unity and rifts among innocent souls. i fear the power of sin and the temptation to urgently gratify our earthly needs. in the thick of the moment we fail to recognize its possession of our beings. we do not see our actions until it is too late and the beast has already set forth against those whom we love and care deeply about.
how can we make amends and avoid these death-traps?
July 19, 2011
sleepless nights
in my dreams, i stand and fight for myself against those who have hurt me in the past. i am eloquent and speak effective words that silence them.
but i lose my voice, it becomes hoarse, half way through and i grow short of breath with every additional statement. i laboriously put forth one word after another while my adversary doubles in strength with each passing moment of weakness.
this is troubling in my sleep. what does it mean?
but i lose my voice, it becomes hoarse, half way through and i grow short of breath with every additional statement. i laboriously put forth one word after another while my adversary doubles in strength with each passing moment of weakness.
this is troubling in my sleep. what does it mean?
July 18, 2011
back from distant hells
1. i dont like guys who get too smiley when around someone or something they don't quite know. it comes off as sissy and an egregious flaw to their manhood.
2. i've been trying for a whole three months to grow out my nails. i guess guitar wins quite consistently.
3. i hate writing cover letters. maybe it's because it takes so much energy out of me to try and not sell myself short.
4. as much as i love harry potter, i am tired of the old phenomena. i look forward to a new harry potter series. the game of thrones, hunger games and, beyond sad, twilight, may fill in the void for now.
5. i have been researching day and night, even in my dreams, what i want to do with my life. i sit now, in the office room in the dark, continuing that quest, except for this one impulsive moment where i have chosen to break the pattern and relieve my mind of restless thoughts.
6. i envy others who write well.
7. i have realized that i am a forgetful person. i can barely remember what i did one year ago, let alone the day before yesterday, or even yesterday itself. but i always remember the impression people leave in my encounters with them. it's like feelings are timeless when events and other things are not.
8. i am grateful everyday for my parents who work extremely hard to provide me and my siblings more than ample support.
9. i love my family beyond verbal expression, beyond a heart explosion. is that even possible? apparently, it is.
10. God, have mercy on me. give me courage. if there was any time for you to intervene, it is now. otherwise, i wait.
2. i've been trying for a whole three months to grow out my nails. i guess guitar wins quite consistently.
3. i hate writing cover letters. maybe it's because it takes so much energy out of me to try and not sell myself short.
4. as much as i love harry potter, i am tired of the old phenomena. i look forward to a new harry potter series. the game of thrones, hunger games and, beyond sad, twilight, may fill in the void for now.
5. i have been researching day and night, even in my dreams, what i want to do with my life. i sit now, in the office room in the dark, continuing that quest, except for this one impulsive moment where i have chosen to break the pattern and relieve my mind of restless thoughts.
6. i envy others who write well.
7. i have realized that i am a forgetful person. i can barely remember what i did one year ago, let alone the day before yesterday, or even yesterday itself. but i always remember the impression people leave in my encounters with them. it's like feelings are timeless when events and other things are not.
8. i am grateful everyday for my parents who work extremely hard to provide me and my siblings more than ample support.
9. i love my family beyond verbal expression, beyond a heart explosion. is that even possible? apparently, it is.
10. God, have mercy on me. give me courage. if there was any time for you to intervene, it is now. otherwise, i wait.
January 4, 2011
when morales are low and life’s rhythm cheats on dignity in gasping blows, it’s times like these when you face the might of the seven seas that you’re struck to humiliation by the unworthiness of your presence in His highness. so i bend my will and yield to His strength, i cry in stillness and speak at ill length, may Yours be the way, O to death should i stray, for i am nothing but to trust and obey.
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